TRASH BITS.

NUMBER 42 - PHOENIX.

2011-08-27T02:45:00.000-07:00

Once again, I hear myself singing

The ballad that I had long forgotten

These overdue feelings are overwhelming me

I wanna kill it, I wanna be free

Once again, I see myself dreaming

Inside this little room

But dreams are meant for sleeping

And I must wake up soon

Once again, I found myself hoping

Hoping for the impossible

I am done with trying

But I can’t stop myself from dying

Once again, I found myself drowning

Suffocated by my thoughts

I see no happy ending

Not even one, not even close

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April 24, 2011 10:59pm

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For a college crush who doesn't even remember me now. :(

NUMBER 41 -- LET'S GET THIS STRAIGHT.

2011-02-03T08:10:00.000-08:00

I'm tired of being the weaker one

Tired of the words unsaid, and the things undone

Not gonna play the damsel in distress anymore

Will fly alone and forever soar

Will not be a puppet of your old lies

Will not be the instrument of your goodbyes

Will not be the audience of your fake shows

Won't wait until the curtain's closed

Tired of asking for your attention

Ignore will be the name of my mission

I'll learn how to play your game

Your tactics are getting lame

Won't hope for tomorrow, all I have is now

You can leave but first please take a bow

Let's get this straight, let's get this right

Watch me taking off, see me taking flight

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11:55pm | January 29, 2011

NUMBER 40 -- PRESS PLAY.

2011-01-30T06:54:00.001-08:00

It's on again.

Solitude takes over.

It hits refrain.

The more I become sober.

Wait for the chorus.

It's much more depressing.

It's interfering my focus.

Haven't heard the ending.

Press rewind.

Just to unwind.

Hit pause.

Forget all the cause.

Fast forward every pain.

Press play and start again.

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12:05am January 30, 2011

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Because every sad song affects me like hell.

(written while half-sleeping)

NUMBER 39 -- HEY, YOU!

2011-01-25T03:54:00.000-08:00

Hey you, with your basketball,

will you just catch me when I fall?

Coz you make my heartbeat stop,

With those moves, I was trapped.

Hey you, with your ice cream van,

that ginger hair just looks so fine.

Coz your magic makes my heart beat fast,

I'm not sure my sanity's going to last.

Hey you, with your deep set eyes,

that sweet smile almost got me petrified.

Coz you took my breath everytime I look.

Eventhough you're just a werewolf from a book.

Hey you, boy with a guitar,

I have declared a losing war.

Against those eyes, I am dead.

When you're around I just cant breathe.

Hey you, my one true love.

Who's really none of the above.

You've wasted my time and everything.

Now be prepared to be my nothing.

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January 23, 2010 | 1:59am

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CB|RG|TL|RC

but for noone.. really.

NUMBER 38 -- THE BEST THINGS IN LIFE ARE TOTALLY FREE.

2011-01-12T22:34:00.000-08:00

The best things in life are really free

So shut the fuck up if you don't agree

I love it when it rains and I have a cup of coffee

Cozying under my blanket and watching TV

I love those late-night chit-chats with my friends

Over almost everything that we can comprehend

The laughter of my niece is so priceless

I love to see her smile that's so precious

I love those grown-up talks with my parents

Even though we've had some little disagreements

I love it when my favorite basketball team wins

It leaves me pride and joy plus a huge grin

I love it when I read a good book

And when I learn a new dish to cook

I love watching a certain movie all the time

Until I memorize all the lines

I love it when I can relate to a song

And I'll play it again and again for too long

I love it when I can rhyme spontaneously

Just like how I roll lately

I love it when I see him smile

It takes all my burdens for a while

So yes, the best things in life are totally free

I don't know about you, but this poem's about me

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1-11-11 | 11:42AM

NUMBER 37 -- DENIAL.

2011-01-10T04:29:00.000-08:00

How many times did I bid the memories goodbye?

And just how many times will I lie?

I’m not over you, but hey, I tried.

Guess feelings just don’t naturally die.

I told myself to move on from you.

Pains and bruises are what my heart got into.

But how will I do that when at night I dream,

Your face, your voice, to me it screams.

I close my eyes and try to erase you.

Your smile is haunting me, what can I do?

I’ll sleep all these thoughts but they never go away.

I have to get use to it every moment of every day.

I guess there is no such thing as moving on.

We’re all just been numbed until all the feelings are gone.

And even though the time may pass,

Those memories will forever last.

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9.30 December 1, 2010

NUMBER 36 -- TELL ME WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE, AND I'LL TELL YOU MINE.

2011-01-10T03:03:00.000-08:00

We watch movies together, pig-out and dine.

We don’t drink any alcohol but we’ve had some wine.

We have differences but we get along just fine.

Now let me start with some little introduction,

And I hope that by now, I’ve got your attention.

She goes by the nickname TinTin, and she’s worried about everything.

She likes to draw eyes and she loves to wear pearl earrings.

To be her friend, you must have the patience to wait,

Because sometimes, she is so fashionably late.

She has a huge crush on a cartoon character,

Although she knows that she’s gushing over a paper.

She’s not aware that she is beautiful inside out,

Behind those boyish moves is lady screaming out loud.

Her heart was broken by some stupid moron.

She’s been wretched for a while, but she’s now moving on.

She’s radiant, blooming and yes, going strong.

KayKay, with those deep set of dimples.

She has this thing for small people.

She likes green and all she thinks about is food,

But she doesn’t get fat; she’s always in good mood.

Partners in crime, that’s what we are,

From band members to basketball stars

Her dream is someday to be kissed in the rain,

By a guy named Yael or Simon Atkins.

Behind those pretty smile is a strong-willed girl

A loyal friend, a model student, and a loving daughter.

Every day I flashback to those days I hear her laughter,

Those were the memories I’d like to ponder forever.

She’s my Seoul, and I’m her body.

She likes hugs and being called ‘baby’.

Ace, is the ultimate Sarah Geronimo fan

The Popstar Princess is her only one.

She walks in mystery but she’s true to herself

She bids goodnight as she drinks her milk.

She’s thoughtful, sweet, one of a kind

A treasure that is very hard to find

She loves this boy with all her heart

And I hope He knows how to play his part

For the only thing that I wish her is complete happiness

She deserves nothing more than a day of bliss.

I love them like I love eating,

Being with them, FUN is a sure thing.

I miss them and Im’ma tell ‘em everyday.

I won’t forget the day we met in any other way.

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January 8, 2010 | 1:42am

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For d'Gang :)

NUMBER 35 -- EMPTY.

2010-12-04T07:44:00.000-08:00

pretending everything's okay can be tiring

sometimes i just wanna give in

break down and let lose all these frustrations

so many disappointments and miscalculations

lately i've been feeling empty

feeling nothing, not even happy

did i go numb to the pains of life

don't know what's my purpose

don't know what's my worth

is my life about to foreclose

or am i just heading way up north

it's like i'm in this blind horizon

and i'm held in dark uptight prison

i want to break free but i can't

so little time, so many wants

i'm tired of fighting this battle

because i'll always lose against myself

there will always be something that will burst my bubble

when my hope gets too high

but i guess all these are trials with a cost

they are meant to remind me that i'm lost

and i need to find myself before others do

figure out these life's little clues

i just gotta have the patience

someday everything will make sense

for now all i can do is try

do something new and never ask why

i can't wait to get my wings and fly

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2.57am | 11.27.10

NUMBER 34 -- YOU LOST ME.

2010-12-04T07:31:00.000-08:00

How could you be that bad?

When I loved you with all I had.

Left me numb and cold in the ground

I'm blinded by your lies hiding in the clouds

We were happy, at least that's what I thought

But distance is a battle you never fought

You're too weak to carry on

You gave in to temptations very soon

Well now at least I realized

That you were never a golden prize

You lost me, now you want me back

No way, my world won't again turn black.

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10:47pm November 29, 2010

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written for a friend. :)

NUMBER 33 -- SKY.

2010-11-28T19:06:00.000-08:00

I love that tattoo in your neck

And I love it when I hear you speak

I love it when you're stealing the ball

It's like you're stealing my heart from a fall

I love to take pictures when you turn your back

Showing your jersey number on track

I love it when you jump high and do acrobats

It's like your flying mid-air just like a bat

I love how you smile when you commit a mistake

And I love the fact that you can cook and bake

I love to watch you when you don't have a clue

And I love it when you catch me glimpsing at you

I love how you make my heartbeat skip

And how your ways always makes me weak

I love everything that you do

Most especially YOU.

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5:03 pm | November 19, 2010

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While I'm writing this poem, I can't help but giggle. Hahaha. Yiheeeeeeeeeeee.

NUMBER 32 - FAKE.

2010-11-17T07:36:00.000-08:00

all they do is gossip

and talk about other people's lives

sit there and do nothing

cannot wait for another dive

all they do is pretend

say the things they can't even comprehend

all those deeds are all so lame

they'll do everything to get that fame

all they do is pointing flaws

they didn't know they have too

its like they thought they're not breaking laws

of being respectful and staying true

all they know is stab you in the back

and before you know it you're under attack

being nice when you face them

Turn your back and they'll hit your dream

all they know is pushing people down

replace your smile with an ugly frown

it's like they're the master of the game

and you're just another player unseen

all they know is laugh at you

say mean things that hurts too

they make quiet atmosphere loud

they were born obnoxious and proud

all they know is they know everything

when in truth is they know nothing

they pretend they're strong and high

when in truth they're the weakest man alive

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4:17pm | November 19, 2010

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written for the bullies that is constantly reminding me of my flaws.

i don't need you in life, and i'm tired of hearing your shits everyday.

i've got my own life, and i'm happy without you interfering.

ps. you are all bullshit.

NUMBER 31 -- WISH ON A GLOW STAR.

2010-11-17T07:09:00.000-08:00

Sparkle me with your luminosity

I need a single wish right now, right here

In the dark I see you clearly

Can you feel it, can you hear me?

Little glow star won't you grant my wish tonight?

The biggest star, I want to see shining bright

Little glow star please do make it right

Make that biggest star appear in my sight

Sparkle me with your luminosity

Oh little star, please let it be

Hear my aching, hear my plea

Bring the biggest star beside me

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11:00pm | November 16, 2010

NUMBER 30 -- MOVED.

2010-11-17T06:59:00.000-08:00

Saw you today wearing that same cute smile

Which i haven't seen in quite a while

My heart never skipped a beat

Unlike the last time I checked

Maybe this was what they call forgive and forget

Those dreamy eyes used to haunt me in my sleep

Now I barely see you, not a single peep

I never thought I'd say this but I've moved on

Guess I never realized that my will was so strong

No more heartaches courtesy of you

No more bruised and battered heart too

You had no idea what I had to go through

Just to catch my breath and let it all go

Now I'm all happy, contented and bright

My every night is full of fairy dusts and starlights

While yours, I heard, is dim and dark

Well honey, letting you go was not a walk in the park

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10:52 | November 16, 2010

NUMBER 29 -- LATE NIGHTS.

2010-11-17T05:17:00.000-08:00

I still remember that one April night

Where the stars collide with the bright lights

When everything was sparkling

And you held me in your arms but I say nothing

I still remember the unexplainable feeling

My stomach was rumbling even if I have just eaten

Maybe this was the butterflies inside parading

And every nerve in my system celebrating

I still remember the illegal beat of my heart

When you said yes and I felt your warmth

There's fireworks all over the place

A memory that will never be erased

I still remember how you smiled at me

When you tried to be friendly

But I can't speak in front of you

And all I can say was 'hello'

I still remember how you told me it's OK

When I apologized for I was shaking

While I take the photo of the day

You didn't know that my heart was melting

I still remember those little glimpse I catch

It made me happy I swear I can't watch

I clearly remember how you took my breath away

And how you always become the highlight of my day

I still remember how the dream ended up

I watched you climb the bus heading home

All those fairy lights and little dreams will now have to stop

As I hold on to the last strand of hope that you'll come back

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10:20pm | November 16, 2010

I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER.

NUMBER 28 -- GHOST OF YOU.

2010-09-27T05:01:00.000-07:00

Go away and stop haunting me

Those eyes of yours will never set me free

Let me sleep and keep away from my sight

Let me sleep and break the monotony tonight

Those smiles are forbidding me

To close my eyes and dream

Please go away and let me be

It’s not as easy as it ma seem

Go away, the ghost of you

My thoughts are captured and sealed

Go away from my wretched mind

Those secrets will never be revealed

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June 10, 2010 | 3:55am

NUMBER 27 -- R.E.M.

2010-08-27T06:37:00.000-07:00

It's the end of the day,
and the moon takes over.
As the stars twinkle in the sky,
you smile and bid your day goodbye.

Another day has ended
But broken hearts were never mended.
Perhaps in your sleep it's good,
perhaps in your dreams it would.

But when you lie wide awake,
you're lost in your thoughts again.
You close your eyes and keep still,
Hoping it would numb the pain.

Finally, when dreams invade you
You forget the tears and all the hurt.
Temporary bliss feels good too,
Even if it won't last that long.

But when the night turns to day,
and sweetdreams were washed away.
You wake up and realize,
that reality bites more to your dismay.

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June 19, 2010

NUMBER 26 -- I CAN'T RHYME.

2009-12-05T00:10:00.000-08:00

I lie alone.
I'm wide awake.
It's 2am and its cold.
I'm coining a poem,
but my words have gone old.
I lull myself to sleep.
I want to dream.
YOU are the ONLY PROMISE I wanna keep.
But it;s getting dim.
I want to escape my reality.
And live in your illusion.
You had held my heart in prison.
I don't want to be freed soon.
Why do I lie awake and think of you?
Of all the things we've possibly gone through?
You are my caffeine.
You keep me awake.
AND WHY DID YOU EVER CROSSED MY MIND?
WHEN ALL I WAS JUST SAYING
IS JUST 'I CAN'T RHYME'?

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1:19am November 12, 2009

NUMBER 25 -- ON A NIGHT LIKE THIS...

2009-09-07T00:11:00.000-07:00

On a night like this,
I feel lost in the middle of a maze
Looking for answers
For questions that always linger.

I'm in a place of solitude,
Where happiness is only an illusion
I guess it's wrong to conclude
That escape is my only option.

On a night like this,
The past slaps my face..
I cannot move, I cannot breathe.
I lay quietly until i bleed.

I am weakened by this sadness,
I can't think of any less
My every heartbeat brings pain
As I trip down memory lane...

On a night like this,
When the raindrops are endless,
I wish these tears would seize to drop
As the heavy rain stops...

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AUG 17, 2009 | 10.50pm

NUMBER 24 -- HERE WE GO AGAIN.

2009-09-07T00:03:00.000-07:00

Here you go again...

Walking right in front of me
Flasing smiles that drive me crazy
One look, one glance
I am, again, lost in your trance
One word, one song
You made me cry all night long
This feeling i had regain
You're slowly letting my feel the pain...
HERE YOU GO AGAIN...

Here I go again...

Holding on to what had been
Two years since I learned to forget the feeling
Two years since I stopped the dreaming
I tried my best not to fall apart
Because I know that you'll only break my heart
I'm not going to take the risk
But i'm just to weak to resist
I never learn, I fell again...
HERE I GO AGAIN...

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August 10, 2009 | 3.23pm

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inspired by Demi Lovato ;)

NUMBER 23 -- QUESTIONS.

2009-09-06T23:57:00.001-07:00

how can i forgive you?
if i can't even forget
the times that you have hurt me
i was drowning with regret

how can i manage to go on?
when your smile forbids me to
it hurts so much to think
that letting go is my only option

how can i sleep at night
when i know somebody's by your side?
i'm caught in wishful thinking
i wish you never lied

how can i move on?
when you're always on my mind
i hate that i love you that much
i guess i was this blind

how will i escape the ghost of you?
it's haunting the worst out of me
i'm trying to rebuild my life
but your memory cuts like a knife

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JULY 6, 2009 | 12.29pm

NUMBER 22 -- WISH.

2009-08-05T02:18:00.000-07:00

I want to hold your hand

while walking in the sand

I want to kiss you until the sunset

until I breathe my last breath

I want to stare at your eyes

until both of us dies

I want to share forever with you

whispering three words 'i love you'

I want to kiss you under the rain

take away your hurts and pain

I want to grow old with you

loving you is all i wanna do

I love you with all my heart and soul

I promise to be true and give my all

That's how much i care for you

too bad YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE A CLUE

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June 23, 2009

9:11pm

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sleepless early nights. hahahaha. san ba to nanggagaling? miss na po kita. basketball ka na.

LOL

NUMBER 21 -- JUST A LITTLE CRUSH.

2009-08-05T02:12:00.000-07:00

you walked my way, i felt a rush

you said hello, i think i blushed

i was wodering if...

this is JUST A LITTLE CRUSH?

i saw you in the corner

when you last class was just over

you were talking to her.

i felt a little twitch inside my heart

i wish i was the one in her part

could it be that i'm a little hurt?

my thoughts are rumbled,

they are clashed.

i can't figure out if...

this is JUST A LITTLE CRUSH?

or is it something more?

i have to claim myself and close that door.

THIS WOULD HAVE TO BE A LITTLE CRUSH,

and NOTHING MORE.

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June 23, 2009

9:04pm

NUMBER 20 -- LIES.

2009-07-25T22:00:00.001-07:00

the night turns to day
as the sun takes the dark away
i stare at the endless horizon
not sensing any motion

i'm tired and weary
i'm suffocated by your lies
don't ever try to deny it
i see it in your eyes

the days becomes night
as the sun fades in my sight
i never felt this loneliness
is this what they call emptiness?

i long for you each day that was created
thinking how it could have been if we're not wasted
but then again those lies brought me pain
i will never trust in you again

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10:06pm | June 27, 2009

NUMBER 19 -- DOOM'S DAY.

2009-07-25T21:56:00.000-07:00

The dark took the sun
My body is here but my mind is gone
Another day in this paradise
Filled with bitter truth and sweet lies
The future is glancing
As it approach, I get broken
I will never be caught dancing
In these odd shoes again
The night turns the sky
To being bold and black
I see no reason
For my life is just like prison
Let my day die wasted
Let my life be filled with doom
This fantasy that I, myself created
Will disappear any second

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9:11pm | July 5, 2009

NUMBER 18 -- MOVIE.

2009-07-25T21:51:00.000-07:00

My heart pumps faster
As I enter that dark room
I approach a space in the corner
As I wait for the camera to roll
My heart was filled glee
As I watch the story unfold
I was sitting with noone but me
And my body intensifies although its cold
I fill my heart with joyous spree
As I discover the plot and the story
Every scene appeals differently
It brings another kind of bliss
I try to relax while the actors roll
Sit down, relax, see a movie, it's cool!

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panget noh? nothing can ever explain my feeling pag nanonood ako ng sine eh. haaaaaaaay.
xoxo

NUMBER 17 -- LETTER FOR WHOEVER.

2009-06-22T01:17:00.000-07:00

Dear WHOEVER,

I am tired of being misunderstood
I am left alone, so numb and cold
I am weary of watchful eyes
of their pretentions, denial, and lies
I am smiling but deep inside I'm torn
Too many bridges are being burned
I am only human and I make mistakes
But who are them to forsake?
I cannot please everybody and I'm not trying to
I just can't help but be blue
I try ti give laughters and dry my tears
I try to be strong and hide my fears
Nobody listens when I speak
My time runs out with every tick
I look in the mirror and see a kid
A kid who quietly cries and bleed
There's more to me than what they can see
They're just too narrow-minded to see the real me
But despite of all these dramas that I bear
Is a girl who'll stad up and will not care
I will smile and will not frown
For I will not let them bring me down

Love Lots, KIX

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June 19, 2009 | 9:42pm

xoxo

NUMBER 16 -- THE RIDDLE.

2009-06-22T01:04:00.000-07:00

i wear a white uniform with dignity and pride
compassion and care are my guide
i carry a sline that can calm people
from the very sick to those who are able

patience i must have with me all the time
i must also have presence of mind
for the health of my patient's rely on me
so that they will be healed and be healthy

i alleviate the sick's suffering
be there until the last breath of the dying
i am there when a woman goes into labor
until she hears the first cry of her newborn

i stay at the bedside doing all the care
form environmental sanitation to ensuring fresh air
my duty is to protect my patient from harm
to keep a newbron baby safe and warm

i educate people to protect their health
because it's so much more than any wealth
i offer understanding to those who are mentally ill
therapeutic communication is my tool to make them well

i offer my shoulders to a distressed significant other
tell them the truth and never alter
be a helping hand to the physician
trying to save a life and doing everything i can

i can proudly say that my profession is noble
the hospital is my shrine and it is my temple
who am i, if you may ask?
I'M A NURSE, now that's a great task!

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June 20, 2009 | 10:29pm

postnote: i'm proud to be a nurse! :)

NUMBER 15 -- PRINCESS FURIOUS.

2009-06-22T00:58:00.000-07:00

The cold is drizzling through my veins
I'm numb enough to feel any pain
Thoughts of rage fill my mind
Serenity I will never find

I was a lone with a broken heart
A broken heart that's drowned in fury
Everybody is afraid to take the part
Where forgiveness is so blurry

I walk with my heart caught on fire
With raging disbelief and anger overflowing
I hate to carry these emotional burden
But I just can't escape this feeling

It makes me sad that I am mad
But the again I remember the things that they did
All the words that are done and said
And my freedom from anger is far from being dead

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June 19, 2009 | 9:06pm

xoxo

NUMBER 14 -- BLOOD STORY.

2009-06-22T00:50:00.000-07:00

the blood is pouring from her wrist

as she feels the pleasure and the bliss
the wound inside is more painful
than the cut she had created

she was screaming in dead silence
but no one seem to hear her plea
she's battling with loneliness and confusion
she can't think of any solution

the blood is dripping
it's trickling down the floor
she falls down singing
'i am lonely no more'

she talks to herself while smiling
but inside this girl is dying
the wounds will heal away
but the scars are there to stay

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june 20, 2009 | 10:34pm

postnote: i wrote this for all emos outthere who satisfy themselves by cutting their wrists. i guess that's the explanation on that certain behavior.

pps: i'm not one of them, just to be clear! ;)

xoxo

NUMBER 13 -- NOBODY.

2009-06-22T00:40:00.000-07:00

Amidst these shouting crowd
is a nobody singing out loud
Standing straight staring at you
this nobody had nothing else to do

As the night goes deeperand the crowd goes hyper
This nobody is standing still
not knowing exactly what to feel

The you just began the jamming
And everybody just started rocking
Still, this nobodyr stares at you
hoping that you'd stare at her too

The world seemed to stop for a while
as you sing that song of her life
This nobody was just so happy
and this nobody was me

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postnote: i can't remember when exactly i wrote this but i know that this poem is for a special guitarist/vocalist i once got addicted to.

"ONCE" because i don't like them anymore.
wahahahaha.

xoxox

NUMBER 12 -- LITTLE MISS OBSESSIVE.

2009-06-03T21:26:00.000-07:00

maybe i'm out of my mind
or maybe i'm just so blind
for loving someone like you
who doesn't even know

maybe i'm just crazy
for believing that you're my destiny
maybe i'm just a little addicted
addicted to the thought that you're mine

maybe i'm juts drowned in insanity
believing in my own little fantasy
that you are the one for me
and forgetting the whole reailty

maybe i lived in that dream
where "you and me" are a thing
maybe i'm just too obsessed
to the point i got depressed

maybe someday i'll wake up in this lie
and realize that you unreachable like the sky
maybe someday i can accept the bitter truth
that you're not mine and never will be

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yea, i know, SOBRANG CHEESY TALAGA!

heheh!

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8:42 pm | may 29, 2009

NUMBER 11 -- FAIRYTALE WITHOUT SENSE.

2009-06-03T21:20:00.000-07:00

WARNING:

SOBRANG CHEEEESY!

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He is my knight without an armor
My Romeo in a basketball jersey
He is a cager with dignity and honor
But in my world, he's that guy who makes me happy

He is my groom in white leather suit
My star in the middle of the day
He is like my pain medication
He takes all my miseries away

He is the Prince Charming I always dreamt
The Edward Cullen that I love
I adore my hoopsman so much
Even though he doesn't know at all

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11:06pm | may 28, 2009

NUMBER 10 -- NOW SHOWING.

2009-06-03T21:02:00.000-07:00

the show is on minus the curtain
the crowd's applause is waiting
the stage is the sky, the star is ready to fly

stole it in the speed of light
dribbled like thunder in the night
a pass to make it right
jump and take the flight

hnagtime moments are coming soon
sit back, relax, the show is on
last 2 minutes, the master shouts
bang to the hoop, and ovation was made
the show is done, thanks to skyrus

HE'S THE MAAANN!

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7:58pm | may 29, 2009

NUMBER 9 -- THE PASSENGER SAILBOAT.

2009-04-22T22:25:00.000-07:00

She rode the passenger sailboat to follow her dream
to catch the star, to go that far..
It was impossible as it may seem,
knowing that the road ahead is dark and dim.

She rode the passenger sailboat to have her wish,
to hold his hand and steal one kiss.
It is by far all she could wish for,
silently praying that he'll open his door.

She rode the passenger sailboat with one thing in mind,
a star she longs someday she'll find.
She'll do everything she can to go that far,
to reach her dream and catch her STAR.

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8:44 am April 11, 2009

NUMBER 7 -- INSOMNIA.

2009-04-22T22:15:00.000-07:00

my eyes are shut but my mind is not
i'm trying to make sense
not just making another defense

the days are fast
good things they never last
i'm wide awake in this misery
and no one is going to rescue me

the music is melancholic
the lyrics are dramatic
they're trying to bring me to sleep
but they can't, they're making me weep

i'm trying to have a dream
i closed my eyes but then i screamed
the past is haunting me again
and it's causing a terrible pain

i just wanna sleep tonight
hoping tomorrow will be alright
i just wanna sleep tight
wishing these mem'ries will fade when i wake up

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APRIL 17, 2009 12:42am

NUMBER 6 -- I THOUGHT...

2009-04-22T21:55:00.000-07:00

I thought I had forgotten the way he smiled..
The way he laughed and the way he sang.

I thought I had forgotten those sparkling eyes..
Those sparkling eyes that made me cry.

I thought I had forgotten the way he rocked..
The way he move his lips that made my world stop.

I thought I had forgotted how he broke my heart...
How he tore it in pieces, how it all fell apart.

I thought I had forgotten how he looked at her...
How happy they seem and how much he care about her.

I thought I had nursed the wound that he heavily caused...
Now it's battered, worse it was bruised.

I thought I had forgotten how much i care for him..
How much I long to have him in my arms.

I thought I had forgotten all of that..
I just though, but it all came back.

;(

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1:35am | 11th day of April 2009

NUMBER 5 -- TELL MY HEART.

2009-02-26T23:44:00.000-08:00

tell my heart to let you go
even if i love you so
teach it to stop beating your name
and tell it to stop being insane

tell my heart to forget you
because it's wuite difficult, you know
teach it to beat normally again
because it's you who caused the pain

tell my heart to end this dream
my hopeless heart that beats your name
in this journey, where life's unfair
you told my heart that you don't care

tell my heart to stop beating for you
so that it will learn to forget you
mend this heartache that you caused
fix this heart that is forever bruised

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for HIM.
from HER.

written last heartbeat.

;)

NUMBER 4 -- WHAT'S MY WORTH?

2009-02-04T22:35:00.000-08:00

Gone a little emo on this. Just sad though.
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Taking a refuge under the moonlight
Hiding myself from oblivious eyes
Making sure I'm nowhere in sight
And slowly wishing I could die

It was dark and oh so silent
Although the sun is up and shining bright
My mind is furious, my heart is violent
I never wanted another fight

What's really my worth, I asked myself
Have I been apathetic? Have I been cruel?
These questions lingered in my mind
I never thought I was this blind

Am I jealous? Am I bad?
I know I'm always angry and I feel sad
Am I useless? Did I cry?
Now all I can do is wail and cry

The game is not yet over but it's too late
Nobody loved me, it all turned to hate
I'll turn back the time, if I could
Be worthy and true, and yes, I'll be good

But its seems that I'll just have to suffer
These life-long consequences and my impending downfall
I guess I'll always wonder...
WHAT'S REALLY MY WORTH?

IS THERE ANYTHING AT ALL?

xoxo

NUMBER 3 -- I.

2009-02-03T01:47:00.000-08:00

Never call me GAIL and we will be fine that way.

I am a human being created by GOD.
I am equipped with will and intellect which I can be proud of.

I live. I love. I laugh.
I hate. I cry.
I commit mistakes.

I get disappointed. I get sad.
I get frustrated. I get mad.

I love music. I love basketball.
I love myself, most of all.

I hate LIARS, COPYYCATS and BROKEN PROMISES.
And I hate myself for being tactless.

I'm broke but I'm happy.
I'm wretched but yes, contented.

I'm worthless to others.
Maybe a treasure to some.
One thing I'm sure though,
GOD LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM.

I'm strong. I'm weak.
I'm hurt. I'm wasted.

I'm okay. I'm just lost.
I'm nonsense and random.
I'm a rebel without any cost.

I have my own life and my own style.
And I'm not trying to please you or make you smile.

LOVE ME. HATE ME.
JUST DON'T GO MESSING WITH ME,
COZ I STING LIKE A BEE.

I tell you,
I CAN BE YOUR BESTFRIEND,
BUT I CAN BE YOUR WORST ENEMY.

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found in my friendster profile.
who cares anyway.

xoxo

NUMBER 2 -- WASTED HOUR.

2009-02-03T01:22:00.000-08:00

Nine-thirty and getting sleepy
I'm alone in this couch
Trying to do a poetry
Words linger in my mind
But nothing seemed so right
When he's not at my sight
So i closed me eyes
And let my heart talk
My pen started to scribble
In this empty notebook on the table
Ten-thirty and yes, sleepy
Oh, i just did a poetry.

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written last SEPT. 24, 2008
in the hallways of Kauswagan Hotel in Sagay.

xoxo

NUMBER 1 -- ALWAYS BE MY NUMBER 8.

2009-02-03T01:17:00.000-08:00

From the bottom of the ladder

You’ve made it this far

From being a benchwarmer

To being one of the league’s superstar

You are 2008’s Most Improved Player

You literally made poetry in the air

PBA’s SKYRUS, that’s what you are called

Your splendid moves, it never gets old

You proudly wore that Red Bull Barako jersey

With each leap, we all go crazy

Red and White, bearing that number 8

Whenever you’re in the zone, we never lose faith

But then change is really constant

A change that can make me commit a flagrant

You were traded to the Ube Republic

I guess I never understood their tactics

From number 8, you’re 23 again

Instead of Red, it’s now violet

I’ll make this statement simple and plain

In my heart, you’ll always be my number 8…

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written last decmeber 2008 for my SKY.

mwahmwah hugshugs!

xoxo

Hi. Hello. First post for the nth time.

2009-02-03T00:44:00.000-08:00

OhmiGahd. This blog was supposed to be a poem trash can but here i am jotting down thoughts again. Well, i guess i'm really blogaholic and i'm not trying to sound maarte because i'm freaking not.

So i guess, occassionally, i would put some notes about my poems too.
Wala lang, trip ko lang.

WHY NOT.

xoxo