NUMBER 35 -- EMPTY.

pretending everything's okay can be tiring

sometimes i just wanna give in

break down and let lose all these frustrations

so many disappointments and miscalculations

lately i've been feeling empty

feeling nothing, not even happy

did i go numb to the pains of life

don't know what's my purpose

don't know what's my worth

is my life about to foreclose

or am i just heading way up north

it's like i'm in this blind horizon

and i'm held in dark uptight prison

i want to break free but i can't

so little time, so many wants

i'm tired of fighting this battle

because i'll always lose against myself

there will always be something that will burst my bubble

when my hope gets too high

but i guess all these are trials with a cost

they are meant to remind me that i'm lost

and i need to find myself before others do

figure out these life's little clues

i just gotta have the patience

someday everything will make sense

for now all i can do is try

do something new and never ask why

i can't wait to get my wings and fly

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2.57am | 11.27.10

NUMBER 34 -- YOU LOST ME.

How could you be that bad?

When I loved you with all I had.

Left me numb and cold in the ground

I'm blinded by your lies hiding in the clouds

We were happy, at least that's what I thought

But distance is a battle you never fought

You're too weak to carry on

You gave in to temptations very soon

Well now at least I realized

That you were never a golden prize

You lost me, now you want me back

No way, my world won't again turn black.

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10:47pm November 29, 2010

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written for a friend. :)