NUMBER 37 -- DENIAL.

How many times did I bid the memories goodbye?

And just how many times will I lie?

I’m not over you, but hey, I tried.

Guess feelings just don’t naturally die.

I told myself to move on from you.

Pains and bruises are what my heart got into.

But how will I do that when at night I dream,

Your face, your voice, to me it screams.

I close my eyes and try to erase you.

Your smile is haunting me, what can I do?

I’ll sleep all these thoughts but they never go away.

I have to get use to it every moment of every day.

I guess there is no such thing as moving on.

We’re all just been numbed until all the feelings are gone.

And even though the time may pass,

Those memories will forever last.

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9.30 December 1, 2010

NUMBER 36 -- TELL ME WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE, AND I'LL TELL YOU MINE.

We watch movies together, pig-out and dine.

We don’t drink any alcohol but we’ve had some wine.

We have differences but we get along just fine.

Now let me start with some little introduction,

And I hope that by now, I’ve got your attention.

She goes by the nickname TinTin, and she’s worried about everything.

She likes to draw eyes and she loves to wear pearl earrings.

To be her friend, you must have the patience to wait,

Because sometimes, she is so fashionably late.

She has a huge crush on a cartoon character,

Although she knows that she’s gushing over a paper.

She’s not aware that she is beautiful inside out,

Behind those boyish moves is lady screaming out loud.

Her heart was broken by some stupid moron.

She’s been wretched for a while, but she’s now moving on.

She’s radiant, blooming and yes, going strong.

KayKay, with those deep set of dimples.

She has this thing for small people.

She likes green and all she thinks about is food,

But she doesn’t get fat; she’s always in good mood.

Partners in crime, that’s what we are,

From band members to basketball stars

Her dream is someday to be kissed in the rain,

By a guy named Yael or Simon Atkins.

Behind those pretty smile is a strong-willed girl

A loyal friend, a model student, and a loving daughter.

Every day I flashback to those days I hear her laughter,

Those were the memories I’d like to ponder forever.

She’s my Seoul, and I’m her body.

She likes hugs and being called ‘baby’.

Ace, is the ultimate Sarah Geronimo fan

The Popstar Princess is her only one.

She walks in mystery but she’s true to herself

She bids goodnight as she drinks her milk.

She’s thoughtful, sweet, one of a kind

A treasure that is very hard to find

She loves this boy with all her heart

And I hope He knows how to play his part

For the only thing that I wish her is complete happiness

She deserves nothing more than a day of bliss.

I love them like I love eating,

Being with them, FUN is a sure thing.

I miss them and Im’ma tell ‘em everyday.

I won’t forget the day we met in any other way.

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January 8, 2010 | 1:42am

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For d'Gang :)

NUMBER 35 -- EMPTY.

pretending everything's okay can be tiring

sometimes i just wanna give in

break down and let lose all these frustrations

so many disappointments and miscalculations

lately i've been feeling empty

feeling nothing, not even happy

did i go numb to the pains of life

don't know what's my purpose

don't know what's my worth

is my life about to foreclose

or am i just heading way up north

it's like i'm in this blind horizon

and i'm held in dark uptight prison

i want to break free but i can't

so little time, so many wants

i'm tired of fighting this battle

because i'll always lose against myself

there will always be something that will burst my bubble

when my hope gets too high

but i guess all these are trials with a cost

they are meant to remind me that i'm lost

and i need to find myself before others do

figure out these life's little clues

i just gotta have the patience

someday everything will make sense

for now all i can do is try

do something new and never ask why

i can't wait to get my wings and fly

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2.57am | 11.27.10

NUMBER 34 -- YOU LOST ME.

How could you be that bad?

When I loved you with all I had.

Left me numb and cold in the ground

I'm blinded by your lies hiding in the clouds

We were happy, at least that's what I thought

But distance is a battle you never fought

You're too weak to carry on

You gave in to temptations very soon

Well now at least I realized

That you were never a golden prize

You lost me, now you want me back

No way, my world won't again turn black.

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10:47pm November 29, 2010

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written for a friend. :)

NUMBER 33 -- SKY.

I love that tattoo in your neck

And I love it when I hear you speak

I love it when you're stealing the ball

It's like you're stealing my heart from a fall

I love to take pictures when you turn your back

Showing your jersey number on track

I love it when you jump high and do acrobats

It's like your flying mid-air just like a bat

I love how you smile when you commit a mistake

And I love the fact that you can cook and bake

I love to watch you when you don't have a clue

And I love it when you catch me glimpsing at you

I love how you make my heartbeat skip

And how your ways always makes me weak

I love everything that you do

Most especially YOU.

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5:03 pm | November 19, 2010

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While I'm writing this poem, I can't help but giggle. Hahaha. Yiheeeeeeeeeeee.

NUMBER 32 - FAKE.

all they do is gossip

and talk about other people's lives

sit there and do nothing

cannot wait for another dive

all they do is pretend

say the things they can't even comprehend

all those deeds are all so lame

they'll do everything to get that fame

all they do is pointing flaws

they didn't know they have too

its like they thought they're not breaking laws

of being respectful and staying true

all they know is stab you in the back

and before you know it you're under attack

being nice when you face them

Turn your back and they'll hit your dream

all they know is pushing people down

replace your smile with an ugly frown

it's like they're the master of the game

and you're just another player unseen

all they know is laugh at you

say mean things that hurts too

they make quiet atmosphere loud

they were born obnoxious and proud

all they know is they know everything

when in truth is they know nothing

they pretend they're strong and high

when in truth they're the weakest man alive

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4:17pm | November 19, 2010

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written for the bullies that is constantly reminding me of my flaws.

i don't need you in life, and i'm tired of hearing your shits everyday.

i've got my own life, and i'm happy without you interfering.

ps. you are all bullshit.

NUMBER 31 -- WISH ON A GLOW STAR.

Sparkle me with your luminosity

I need a single wish right now, right here

In the dark I see you clearly

Can you feel it, can you hear me?

Little glow star won't you grant my wish tonight?

The biggest star, I want to see shining bright

Little glow star please do make it right

Make that biggest star appear in my sight

Sparkle me with your luminosity

Oh little star, please let it be

Hear my aching, hear my plea

Bring the biggest star beside me

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11:00pm | November 16, 2010

NUMBER 30 -- MOVED.

Saw you today wearing that same cute smile

Which i haven't seen in quite a while

My heart never skipped a beat

Unlike the last time I checked

Maybe this was what they call forgive and forget

Those dreamy eyes used to haunt me in my sleep

Now I barely see you, not a single peep

I never thought I'd say this but I've moved on

Guess I never realized that my will was so strong

No more heartaches courtesy of you

No more bruised and battered heart too

You had no idea what I had to go through

Just to catch my breath and let it all go

Now I'm all happy, contented and bright

My every night is full of fairy dusts and starlights

While yours, I heard, is dim and dark

Well honey, letting you go was not a walk in the park

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10:52 | November 16, 2010

NUMBER 29 -- LATE NIGHTS.

I still remember that one April night

Where the stars collide with the bright lights

When everything was sparkling

And you held me in your arms but I say nothing

I still remember the unexplainable feeling

My stomach was rumbling even if I have just eaten

Maybe this was the butterflies inside parading

And every nerve in my system celebrating

I still remember the illegal beat of my heart

When you said yes and I felt your warmth

There's fireworks all over the place

A memory that will never be erased

I still remember how you smiled at me

When you tried to be friendly

But I can't speak in front of you

And all I can say was 'hello'

I still remember how you told me it's OK

When I apologized for I was shaking

While I take the photo of the day

You didn't know that my heart was melting

I still remember those little glimpse I catch

It made me happy I swear I can't watch

I clearly remember how you took my breath away

And how you always become the highlight of my day

I still remember how the dream ended up

I watched you climb the bus heading home

All those fairy lights and little dreams will now have to stop

As I hold on to the last strand of hope that you'll come back

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10:20pm | November 16, 2010

I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER.

NUMBER 28 -- GHOST OF YOU.

Go away and stop haunting me

Those eyes of yours will never set me free

Let me sleep and keep away from my sight

Let me sleep and break the monotony tonight

Those smiles are forbidding me

To close my eyes and dream

Please go away and let me be

It’s not as easy as it ma seem

Go away, the ghost of you

My thoughts are captured and sealed

Go away from my wretched mind

Those secrets will never be revealed

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June 10, 2010 | 3:55am